So, I’ve been pretty absent from my blog for a little while now. This past week, I think its really dawned on me why.
This is the year of change. It’s time to starting thinking about what the next step will be for me.
I know it’s still a pretty long way off, but Freddie starts school in September. All of a sudden, I feel out of a job. Right from when Arthur was born I felt like being a Mum was my actual job. Obviously not a paid job….We’ve all seen the motivational messages about no payment, 24hours a day 7 days a week blah blah blah.
I think that largely came down to the fact that when we moved out here it was through Mark’s work. I didn’t feel like I was really had a role of my own. Then all of a sudden I had something super important to do, raising this teeny baby. No one ever made me feel that was the case, but it was just what was going on in my head!!
So fast forward four and a half years (yikes!) Arthur has now been in school for over a year and I know it will be a blink of an eye until Freddie is in there too.
I’ve always joked about how excited I am for the kids to be at school and I can spend my days as I please, as a lady of leisure.
But the truth is, I’m freaking out.
I now feel like it’s the time to do something for me, there’s no ‘excuse’ any more.
I would LOVE to be able to continue to expand with my writing.
But What Is The Next Step?
I’ve been blogging for almost 5 years now and I love it. Ive dabbled here in there in writing elsewhere. I contributed towards a book . I’ve written a bunch of articles for an amazing travel site called Culture Trip about all things Seychelles, and I’ve even written an article for British Airways about Romantic Travel in Seychelles
But honestly, I don’t know what it is I need to do to push it to that next step.
Obviously I’ll have more time in the day to dedicate to writing. So, I guess initially I need to spend more time on my blog and getting it out there. But, I’ve written before about not liking the ‘pressure’ of blogging and I still feel the same way. I’m not going to join things to get comments from people who are only writing so that I comment back on their posts, or anything like that!
Do I start approaching people asking if they’d want me to write for them? I’ve never been so great at anything like that!! Or is it better for things to just be little more organic like they have always been up to now? I feel like I’m so out of the world of work since we lived here that I just can’t focus or pin point any direction for myself!!
I didn’t really know what direction that blog post was going to go in when I started writing that! It kinda turned into a mini affirmation for myself. Sorry about that!!! I feel like I’m freaking out about the next step for myself more than I did when I left school and university, is that weird?
Of course, these two will still always be my job, and that’s the best even if they can be total monsters, wake up at crap o’clock in the morning and make mess like no one I’ve ever met!!